April 4, 2019
11:25pm
I am going to miss these days.
Not particularly the lockdown days,
But the days of spending every second with you.
The days of just holding your tiny little body in my arms.
The days where we lay around all day just cuddling and smiling at each other.
The days of me being your only source of food.
The days of your father and I being your everything.
I am going to miss the feeling of your tiny little hand gently patting my side while I feed you.
I am going to miss our conversations that are only gibberish and the way you smile when I make funny noises.
I am going to miss the way you bury your head into my chest when it is too bright in the room.
I am going to miss rocking you to sleep at night and our precious hour of cuddle time every morning.
I am going to miss the way your chubby little cheeks bounce around when you are in your carseat.
I am going to miss spending every second with you.
I am going to miss everything.
Every time I hold him, a part of me thinks about the fact that
One day, it will be the last time by body feeds him.
One day, it will be the last time I rock him to sleep.
One day, it will be the last time I am able to hold him.
I am beyond grateful to be able to spend every second of every day with my tiny little love.
xo